Oo, have i really not posted since Friday? yikes. um, had a great weekend. yeah. fun. never saw fireworks, and ended up not going to the sock hop, but it was still a good weekend and i wasn’t disappointed at all.
yesterday was my dad’s 45th birthday! but he really doesn’t look a day older than 37… anyway, we rented Secondhand Lions. we hadn’t seen it before. it was a decent film. i didn’t think the plot/story wasn’t very fabulously developed, but it was a really cute story and very clean, which is always nice. i was actually struck by the emphasis made on the importance of a man in a boy’s life. they never really spelled it out, but i thought it was made pretty clear that a boy needs a man (really, a father, but if there isn’t one around, another father-figure is still important) to make him a man. and only a man can make a boy a man. now, that’s not to minimize the role of a mother in a son’s life – she is vastly important as well, and i’m also not saying that boys who are raised by mother’s only can’t turn out great, but i believe the faact still remains that there is something absolutely invaluable about a father/man’s role in the raising of boys.
there was also a bit of other hogwash in the movie about believing what you want whether or not it is true, but that was ingnorable. (is that a word?)
something i’ve been pondering/learning lately. i think that:
contentment is not the absence of wants. but the absence of wants in order to produce happiness. restated – being content doesn’t mean that you don’t want anything, it means that you don’t want, nor need, anything to make you happy.
i was asking myself a week or two ago if i was content. and at first i felt as if i wasn’t because there are still things i would like to have in my life. but as i pondered further, i realized that there will always be things that i would like to have. the question is, how badly do i want them? more than i desire my savior? do i want them so badly that i am unhappy with what God has so richly provided me with?
using myself as an example – there are several things i would like. i would like to be married, i would like to have children, i would like to have more free time to cook, make cards, spend with friends, serve in the church… i would like to have more money to spend on various things and people. but in the absence of these things, i can honestly say that i am perfectly happy. i really am. if i never had any of those things, i would still be happy. because happiness is not determined by circumstances or possessions. it is pinned and fixed on something eternal and untouchable.
so perhaps when attempting to answer the question: Am i content?, one should then ask the question: is He enough? if you can honestly answer ‘yes’ to the second question, then ‘yes’ is the answer to the first question.
“Whom have i in heaven but you? and there is nothing on earth that i desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. But for me it is good to be near God; i have made the Lord God my refuge…” ~Psalm 73:25-26, 28a