i got the Phantom DVD set! woo-hoo!! massive excitement
ensuing… i watched some of the bonus footage last
night. i love that stuff. it drives me bonkers when DVDs
don’t have any kind of “making of” or “behind the scenes”
footage. but this one does (well, if you buy the 2 disc edition,
which i deliberately did for said reason), so i’m tickled pink.
why do i balk when someone has an observation for me? when loving
correction is brought, why do i cringe? why is it something i am
so tempted to avoid, yet crave because i know it’s so good? why
am i embarrased (as opposed to being truly remorseful and repentant)
when my sin is exposed?
because i want to be perfect. and i want everyone around me to think i am perfect.
because i am arrogant. and prideful.
essentially, i want to be God.
in my pride, it is not enough that i am created in God’s image, and
that i have the amazing ability and privilege – through grace and the
work of the Holy Spirit – to grow in Godliness. i want to be
God. i want to know everything and exist on my own and have no
need of anything or anyone.
and yet, my spirit cries out for help and dependence and reliance on He
who is perfect and strong and causes all things to exist by the power
of His word.
“Wetched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of
death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So
then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I
serve the law of sin. There is therefore now no condemnation for
those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life
has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death.”
“…for He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.” 1 John 4:4
“And I am sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring
it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6
GRACE. “When we don’t get what we deserve, it’s a real good
thing. When we get what we don’t deserve, it’s a real good
thing.” — Newsboys song
Praise be to God Almighty! I proclaim with the psalmist – “He does not deal with us according to
our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities. For as high
as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His steadfast love
toward those who fear Him.” Psalm 103:10-11