goggle-eyed

ok so several of you have requested to see the goggles mentioned here

well, here they are:
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yeah.  i know.  that’s what i said, too.

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i was supposed to sleep in them for 5 nights following the surgery.  the idea was to prevent me from unknowingly rubbing or scratching my eyes while i slept.

um… that lasted 2 nights.  and after waking up with circles under my eyes both mornings – i’m not sure if it was the goggle marks or the lame sleep i was getting BECAUSE of the goggles that created the circles – (and not to mention the minor break-out they caused on my forehead!), i decided that since i’m a rather still sleeper, the goggles were over.

and so far it hasn’t been a problem!  (and i’m sleeping much more comfortably too.)

the eyes!

the lasik surgery went GREAT! it was very smooth, painless and really cool! the operating room has glass windows so my parents were able to watch and take some pictures! here’s the run down (note: there are some surgery details below so don’t read too much if you get squeamish with eye stuff)..

we left the house around 7:30am thursday morning, made a quick stop at einstein bagels (the pumpkin bagels and pumpkin cream cheese are back! woot!!), and headed up to Axis Eye Institute in Scottsdale.

in some ways, this was the realization of a dream for me. i can remember hearing about this thing called lasik probably about 10 years ago, when it was much more new. and oh, how i dreamed about not having to put contacts in every morning… about being able to swim without being terrified i might lose a contact…about waking up in the middle of the night and actually being able to see what time it was without squinting and guessing!

(this is me protesting having my picture taken. with the way my dad was camera happy you would have thought it was my first day of kindergarten!)
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i will confess – i was much more nervous than i let on. outwardly i was very calm and collected but i had several “freak out” moments in my head. i mean – this is a big deal!! but everyone at the axis office was really calm and acted like it was totally no big deal. which, to them it isn’t really… i mean, they do this all the time. so it was great that they were all super casual and matter-of-fact about all that we did.

they did a quick eye test, took some updated photos of my eyes and before i know it, the numbing drops were in. and let me tell you – having numb eyes is a very strange sensation! the drops stung every so slightly but that went away quickly. i told the assistant to give me as many of those drops as was safe – i didn’t want to feel a thing! i think by the time i walked out of the office she had given me 8 doses! haha!

the first thing they had to do was create the corneal flap on my eye (which they do with a laser). that was a relatively quick procedure. they had my eye propped open with this plastic thing that sort of suction-cupped onto my eye. like i said before, it was painless – i only felt some pressure. when they were creating the flap on my left eye, it was the weirdest sensation because it felt like my eyes were closed because i couldn’t physically keep them open, yet one of them was totally opened. it was crazy.

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after creating the corneal flap, some more drops went in – these ones caused my eyes to dilate. i sat in a dark room listening to my ipod for about 45 minutes while my eyes dilated to HUGE black circles. i seriously looked like the white witch from the narnia movie – my eyes looked nearly black!

then it was time for the laser. i laid down on the operating table and the doctor sat behind my head. one eye at a time was propped open and the opthamologist opened the previously-created flap. while i focused on the red dot in the machine the laser did its thing! i really didn’t feel much of anything. although i could actually SEE the opthamologist opening the flap in my eye – that was way cool. it actually looked/felt more like he was pushing a layer of water over my eye than anything. i could hear the buzz of the laser and there was a slight smell of what resembled burning hair. it wasn’t gross though. it was just… there. and i could hear the digital voice of the machine saying “70 per cent done.” the whole time the dr and the assistant were talking me through it, saying things like, “you’re doing great. just keep looking at the red dot. almost there. you’re doing fantastic. we’re almost done….” etc, which, even though the procedure was unbelievable fast, it was still REALLY helpful to have them talk me through it every step of the way.

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45 seconds later we were switching to the other eye and 45 seconds after that i was done! my eyes felt a bit scratchy and it was really difficult to open them since they were extremely sensitive to lights being still so heavily dilated. but for the few moments that i could force them open, i could definitely see perfectly! but since it felt much more comfortable to just keep my eyes closed, i didn’t try out my new and improved eyeballs too much right then. 🙂 i wore the stylin’ sunglasses they gave me on the drive home though..

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they told me not to sleep immediately after the surgery – i don’t quite remember why. since it was nearly impossible to open my eyes, i laid on my bed with my eyes closed for a couple hours listening to adventures in odyssey on my ipod. then i decided that that was ridiculous and i was practically asleep anyway. so i gave in and fell asleep for a couple hours. when i woke up around 4pm all the scratchiness was gone, my eyes had un-dilated and i could see perfectly! it was so cool!

i definitely walked out of that office amazed at the intelligence that God gives to men (and women) to discover and invent such amazing things as lasik surgery. i mean, to spend two hours in scottsdale, 2 minutes under a laser and instantly have perfect vision with practically no recovery is just incredible!

so now i’m supposed to be sleeping in goggles for 5 nights (to prevent me from scratching at or rubbing my eyes in my sleep) – you can interpret “supposed to be” how you like – and i can’t wear mascara for 5 days. why 5? it takes 5 days for the corneal flap to seal back down on my eye and heal. oh and i have 2 types of eye drops (a prescription one and one that is basically liquid prednisone) that i use 4x/day.

but in the meantime i can see wonderfully and have no discomfort whatsoever!

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yesterday, today and tomorrow

yesterday
i had my pre-op appmt for my LASIK surgery yesterday!  and i officially hit the “ok i’m just a little bit freaked out now” point as i lay under the machine and they took pictures of my eyes.  the mongoose in my stomach started doing somersaults as i anticipated and envisioned laying underneath that machine in less than 48 hours while they surgically alter my vision.  yeah, a little freaky.

they also gave me these gooey yellow drops to apply to my eyes 3x/day until thursday morning.  i’m not really sure what they do.  the nice lady said they’re just like “tylenol for the eyes.”  ::shrug::  oh, ok. 

the other freaky part was reading over all the paperwork where you have to sign and indicate that you recognize all the risks and caviats associated with this procedure.  yikes!  i know they have to do that, but still…

today
i’m so ready to be done wearing glasses.  it wasn’t bad really, up until last night.  but now, i’m quite ready to go back to vision without something sliding down my nose every 2 minutes.  🙂

tomorrow
it happens!  i’m still excited, although a tad nervous… mostly just for the unknown.  i don’t know how long it will take my eyes to dilate.  i don’t know what it will feel like.  i don’t know how my eyes will see or feel or act when i get up off the operating table.  so it’s a little wierd.  but i’m still really excited!! 

and on a comical note – for five days after the surgery i get to wear these goggles to bed (to make sure i don’t rub or scratch my eyes in my sleep while the flap is healing)… and no mascara or eye makeup for five days either.  i found that to be a little annoying, but i suppose i can sacrifice my vanity for a few days in exchange for a couple-thousand dollar procedure to give me perfect vision for the next 25 years. 

yeah, don’t exactly want to mess that up!  hand me those goggles…

PS – my confidence in the accuracy of lasers was boosted slightly when i saw what a high intensity laser beam did to these EGGS:
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let’s just hope my opthamologist isn’t feeling “artistic”!

today is a very important day.

today is the last day i will be wearing contacts… probably forever.

or at least for the next 20+ years.

tomorrow i start a week of wearing glasses.

(which, as much as i dislike wearing my glasses for extended periods of time, it will probably be really good because i’m totally one of those people who likes wearing their glasses simply because they look cute and thus would also be one of those people who would seriously consider wearing glasses with non-prescription lenses – simply because they look cute.  so wearing my glasses for a week straight will hopefully make me sick of them and i won’t be as inclined to wear them purely for aesthetic reasons.  😉 )